REFLECTION ON THE FEAST DAY OF MARY MAGDALENE
As I reflect on the readings today and the life of Mary Magdalene I can’t help but be overwhelmed by her longing and perseverance in seeking out Him who her soul loved even before she knew Him. Soul deep love…soul deep longing….soul deep attraction, after having lived a life of distraction.
I know this longing….this desperation, for I too was that desperate. After years of depression and suicidal ideation and constantly being drawn to the church and the power of the sacraments, I one day found myself on the floor of the Adoration Chapel begging God for help. Begging God to bring me life, for I was dead….spiritually, mentally, and nearly physically. I KNEW HE was the only answer. And so I surrendered again after years of persistent searching for relief. I felt Mary’s desperation, exhaustion, and soul-crushing ache for Him…for HE is the only answer, the only source of LIFE.
And what followed for Mary and myself was a torrent of grace….a firehose of grace pouring forth from HIM into our souls. Going from death to NEW LIFE in an instant! He had waited to heal me as I persevered and STRETCHED my desire so that I would come to the point where all that mattered was HIM and eternal life. My perseverance had moved his heart and HE gave me NEW LIFE. A life like I had never known before. Such JOY, such POWER, such ENERGY, such LOVE that I was COMPELLED to share the news….the news of HIS power, HIS grace, HIS life to all that I encountered.
The gospels tell us that Mary became a follower of Jesus after her miracle and that Mary ran to the apostles to share the news of the Resurrection for HE had become her life. A new life also took hold of my heart, mind, and soul that day as it had for Mary and continues even today,for HIS life is within me in a way I had never imagined possible. This life is available to all. HE the Bridegroom waits to bring this new life to His Bride, the church. HE waits silently and patiently for our surrender to HIM, stretching our DESIRE…..that we might come to Him with empty hands and hearts ready to be filled to the brim and overflowing with grace.
St. Mary Magdalene, pray for us.
Written by Karen Baglieri, member of the Sisterhood of Mary, Mystical Rose of God