How can we take those darkest moments of our lives and grow through the purification of our souls and desires?
When I was suffering for over three years with soul crushing depression and suicidal ideation along with multiple physical ailments I begged God to end my suffering, to alleviate the pain, to help me find some recourse, some lifting of that suffering.
Thankfully God had led me to the beautiful teachings about redemptive suffering before I became sick. I KNEW I could do something good with the pain. I KNEW something good could come out of that pain. So I would offer it up as a prayer and sacrifice, sometimes for my family members, sometimes for the redemption of mankind, sometimes for someone else that I KNEW was also suffering.
Uniting my suffering to Jesus’ suffering on the cross did not necessarily bring me relief from my pain but I KNEW in the spiritual realm that GOD heard my prayers and could apply the grace from that prayer wherever HE deemed fit. That in and of itself would bring me some spiritual relief, mental relief, and emotional relief. Being united with Christ in His redemptive suffering gave meaning, value, and purpose to my suffering. I KNEW it wasn’t wasted.
This is how we “bloom in the darkness”.
Written by: Karen Baglieri, member of the Sisterhood of Mary, Mystical Rose of God