On our liturgical calendar, the month of October is dedicated to the Holy Rosary, with…
“Will I ever be healed? Maybe I am just too broken.” If you have felt overwhelmed by the depth of your wounds and the shattered pieces of your heart, take courage. Healing truly is possible, for with God nothing is impossible. He has promised that in heaven there will be no more pain and no more weeping. His plan for you includes not just complete and everlasting healing but divinization and glory. He has already begun this good work in you, here and now. And while there is no set time length for this journey or complete healing while here on earth, we must not become discouraged. In the following article that I wrote in 2019, I describe how shifting my perspective on what it means to be healed gave me a greater sense of peace and the ability to be patient and compassionate with myself. I share my story with the hope that your heart will be blessed and your strength renewed.
“The Journey of Healing and Becoming”
Some days the fact that my healing journey has no definitive end date is frustrating and exhausting. Yet other days I am able to see my journey as a gift and an adventure. I wonder if my “healing journey” is really just a name for what I am called to do each and every day… live in a broken world with my eyes fixed on Jesus and with trust and hope, in every moment, become a truer reflection of the image of God.
Becoming… it is an active continual process. The acts of becoming and of healing are integral to one another and possibly synonymous. In this broken world can I – can any of us – escape the heartbreak, trauma, sufferings that inflict physical, emotional, and spiritual wounds? Our wounds invite us to open the door to healing again and again. I experience a deep peace when I shift my perspective and see my physical and emotional pain as the doorway to healing. My Lord has proven Himself a faithful and gentle Physician. Together we have walked through many thresholds with pain and sorrow as welcome mats. But when I turn my gaze from my wounds to the brilliance of His Light piercing through the cracks of the doorframe, I am not afraid to push the door open wide.
I used to ask “Lord, when will I be HEALED? What will it be like to be HEALED?” I believe He has given me an answer….
In this world of heartache, sin, illness, and death I cannot find one who is “healed” and never in need of more healing. I know what HEALED looks like when I meditate on images of the risen Christ. My resurrected Savior is glorious, brilliant, and fully alive! Yet, He bears the scars of His wounds. His suffering is over but not forgotten. His scars remind me that had He not been tortured and crucified there would have been no healing, no resurrection necessary.
I must walk my healing journey with Christ, at peace with the knowledge that in this world I will have pain but I do not need to fear because He has overcome this world. His overcoming was in His suffering, dying and only then in His rising. My overcoming can be no different. I will know “healed” when I see my Beloved face to face in Heaven. For now… there is more healing to be done and that’s okay.
Copyright 2023 Laura Ercolino